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It's all his fault!

Yes. It's true. My apartment is actually in a near state of cleanliness, there is a big dumb grin on my face, I'm sleeping at night...(after we get off the phone)...and my days are never boring...(not that they were before.....).

Just when romance had become a verbose man's four letter word I logged into eharmony to eliminate some more really scary people. And there was this new match. And there was something about his face that I just seemed drawn to. So I read his profile and actually laughed twice. However, my sense of adventure had been somewhat dulled by some previous disasters with eharmony, so I rated him fairly high and went to bed....and thought about his face all night....and thought about his face all day at work the next day.

So I came home and logged back in to eharmony and initiated communication. What was the worst he could do? Ignore me?

From what he says he'd just about given up on the whole process and was about to cancel his eharmony subscription when he got my invitation. He decided he'd at least look over my profile. It only took 3 days for us to get to open communication, then we emailed through the site until he asked to call me. We started talking on the following Monday and he asked to come see me that Saturday...in a fully refurbished '68 Mustang. :)

On May 3rd he asked if we could be exclusive. :) So I have a boyfriend named Justin now. He's from GA so we only get to see one another on weekends we both have free, but we talk on the phone almost every night...about everything....hahahhahaha! Often until 2 in the morning! He paints, enjoys studying Germanic tribal literature, listens to an eclectic collection of music like myself, is interested in dancing, can actually keep up with me in a Biblical/theological/philosophical discussion and also shares many very strange things in common with me. We laugh a lot together, but when we hit a serious topic, he'll go there with me. If God comes up in the conversation- he goes there with me without hesitation. I don't feel like I have to hide any aspect of me in order to ensure his friendship/affection. He's actually wanting to go to the opera with me and someday he wants to take me to the Shakespeare Tavern.....there are just so many things that are wonderful, absolutely wonderful, about him.

So I'm smiling....and it's all his fault! ;)

www.myspace.com/findgreenamber

Let the games begin!!!!

For those of you hanging by a thread of suspense!

So many things to write about....

First: We're down to 2!
1. Green Amber
2. Forest Rain
FINAL CHANCE TO VOTE!

Second: You gotta love people.
So I'm at a dress rehearsal for our Service of Darkness (Good Friday) and we finish this section where the 1st sopranos go up onto those little notes that tends to send them sky high. In this case it only took us to an F. Please. Scare me harder.
#1 looks at #2 and myself and comments that she thinks we got the note sequence right this time, but that she thinks we need to be softer.
I think to myself....huh? There's 3 of us against the entire rest of the choir...we're not that loud....so I ask why she thinks that.
#1: Because the notes are smaller.
Me: What do you mean?
#1: When the notes are smaller it means you're supposed to sing them softer.
Me: The usual interpretation of small notes in choral music is that they're optional harmonies and if you have no one to sing them you can just as easily leave them out without harming the integrity of the piece.
#1: Well, yeah. It can mean that too. But usually it means that you're supposed to sing them softer.
Me: I'm not familiar with that.
#1: Really? It's pretty common. Yeah. That's what it really means.
#2 is sitting there nodding in agreement this entire time. #2 has a degree in music education. #1 had just spent a rather lengthy amount of time talking about how amazing she was as a singer in college and how many groups she sang in and how she was able to get into exclusive groups...even emphasizing that she's sung in groups where you weren't standing next to others in your part. (Honey, at a collegiate level that's pretty darned common.....) #1 is probably in her late 30s or early 40s and #2 is the same age as me.
Now I ask you- if you had a background in music COMPOSITION (making musical notation a particular specialty of yours) what would you be thinking at this point!? I admit that it hurt to have this woman patronizing me and I desperately wanted to put her in her place. Instead I just let it go.
Then comes Easter Sunday morning. The choir files out and sits. The prelude is playing...and through the ENTIRE song portion of the service #1 and #2 are sitting there CHATTING while sitting in THE FRONT ROW of the CHOIR!!!!!!!!! Ladies! Where is your professionality!!!???? You both went to school for it!!!!!!!!
Professors told me it would be hard to readjust into the general populace after college. How right they were! Pray for my patience, humility and grace! Holy cow!

Third: I love my friend!!!! haha! He teaches our Sunday school class and is one of the associate pastors at the church. I was the only one who showed up for Sunday school this week so he and I had a one on one session over the lesson. We got to really share some things that were on our hearts relating to the lesson and at the end of it all he asked if he could pray for me. I assented and he began: Dear God, I come to you to bring Amber before you today.......
I about died trying not to laugh!!!!!!!!

Fourth: Internet Brutality
Have you ever tried any of those online dating services? I'm in the middle of a trial run for the eHarmony thing. I'm discovering that guys can be really brutal in this setting! They either try to patronize me from the start, giving me advice (that I didn't ask for and proves that they didn't actually read what I said), or they write me off as something I'm not without even asking questions. I had a guy tell me I was a legalist because I have standards in my life! Oh. My. Gosh. He and I were clicking really well up to that point. He closed me because I don't believe it's smart to wander through life without creating standards based on experiences you or others have had. That idea had shown him "where [my] heart truly was". I was just like all the people in the church where he grew up that threw a guy out because he dyed his hair. I've had several guys go off on me and give me speeches about how I should change my approach based on things they've MISREAD in my answers. Upon pointing out their mistake with an explaination on what I meant (that they didn't even bother to ask for) they misread the explaination and made it all worse. Finally, they claimed that they were, in fact, great "listeners" and they didn't know why it was that we were having such difficulty communicating.
Say what!? Apparently they can tell exactly who I am based on 10 photos and the answers to 2 pages of questions.
Have a nice day.

Bottom line: Please remember that there is a human being on the other side of your computer screen who has an identity and feelings. Ask questions to clarify your concerns. Nobody likes being misunderstood. (I admit that I've really failed at this before...which is one reason why I'm so passionate about it. I know how badly I've hurt people because all I could see was a computer screen and, in my arrogance, I decided I already knew what they meant.)

Fourth: Do you really know what you're claiming!?
What's with all the Christian guys out there that believe that sex outside of marriage is important!? They're usually guys that list following Jesus and teaching the Bible as their main passion in life. Did you READ the book you're claiming you teach!!!!??? And, correct me if I'm wrong, wasn't Jesus CELEBATE his entire life!? Just asking. (I'm not indicating that married guys are not following Jesus. Merely that single guys having sex are not. The Bible's pretty clear on that one.)
Let me explain something: sexual compatability is a recent issue. Nobody cared about it until the 1960s!!!!!! *waving toward imaginary waiter* Check please!

I now understand why guys HATE having to make the effort to start something. It's really frustrating to get up the effort only to find out that this person wasn't worth your time in the first place. Makes me want to give up entirely. Being single is waaaaaaaaaaaay better than being with pretty much anything I've been presented with as a match.
(I have actually met some really nice guys on the site- don't let my lopsided presentation fool you. The frustrating thing is that they are very few and quite far in between.)

As for today: I have to work tonight (yuck). It's my next to last day at this job (yea). It snowed today for a couple of minutes (pretty). Tomorrow it will be almost 60 degrees (happee). Someday I'll get up the gumption to do my dishes (haha).